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January 6th, 2005
12:39 pm - I didn't lie...I swear!
So I know that I haven't posted in a long time right guys? But now I can't sleep and it's almost four in the morning and I have these lines running through my head. So I thought it would be brilliant to make my debut back onto my journal with a twistedly depressing entry. Yayyyyy! Don't be concerned with the contents, just small sparks of inspiration. So... what do you think? Anything good down there?
Black swirls of mist circled and spun around her head. Surprising a young girl as to the warmth that the darkness could cradle her in, or maybe it was just the fact that her tear stained cheeks were burning a crimson red. She could hide almost everything, huddled alone in the thin sheets. Everything from the painful look of agony that sat unmovable over her body, she could hide bruises, shattered bones, even the barren sense of self. She could shrug off the constant insults to her consciousness that plagued her with doubt, deep in the far crevices in the back of her mind. Those never went away, instead they slowly tortured her in the waking hours. However she could not stop the heavy evaporating tears that silently threw themselves down her cheeks; along with the jaggedly muffled sobs that tore across the silence, vibrating off the walls and back into her ears. Through this chaotic silence she prayed for sleep, for a feeling of security and safety to pass over her body. But it never did.
PS. The icon was made by Ben, the person, not the dog.
Current Mood:  aggravated
Current Music: Damien Rice
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May 10th, 2004
11:08 am - here's the rest of that last vent
so where was I....
okay so my dad lost the pay stub but we had the deposit slip, so we know how much money is in our bank account. But my mom is ranting and raving, saying that she cannot pay the morgage because she doesn't know how much of my dad's money went to taxes!!! What the fazzizle?
AAAAAHHHHH! It is so frustrating.
On mothersday I talked to my mom about it and she told me that it was really all about the respect issue of my dad always thinking that it is " so damn easy to pay the bills" and the "he's just the walking wallet" and she won't talk to dad until dad goes to her first.
Thus in summary:
It was a stupid arguement over a stupid issue with stupid subissues at work, and stupid attitudes that needed to stupidly change a long time ago. Some day there will be a stupid resolution or an even stupider divorce.
Who knows?
Otherwise, I am cheeky.
Excited for prom (actually I can't breath)
And trying to learn Italian (which is a stupid language)
Keep it shakin like bacon!
Current Mood:  bouncy
Current Music: I wish I knew the name of the band!
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May 7th, 2004
11:32 am - parent troubles
Wow, so everybody hates their parents, including me. So lets jump back to wed. when I came home from work and walk into the office to talk to my mom about signing up for housing at the UW, and when I look over I notice that she had been crying. Asking her what was wrong she turns to me and replies with an expressionless "nothing" and proceeds to walk away. Okay, so now that I've had that wonderful moment of communication where she told me why/who she's upset with, I can let her be.
I go ahead and look up my information and go to ask her whether she still wants to see it. Again we have the loving answer of "have your father look at it" of course this definately doesn't float my boat and I answer with the snotty "fine!" and go back upstairs.
Talking to Ben, later that night, my mom storms into my room and goes off in a rampage about how I never respect her and everything always revolves around me. Well, then....
I just don't know what to do about this...
Running after her, I simply asked her to let me know that she doesn't want to tell me what was wrong. That's all. But mom says that she doesn't want to do that and she will never change.
My I love these senerios so much that I wish to gauge out my eye with a tuning fork.
So do you all wish to know why she was upset?
My dad deposited his pay check into the bank, but over the weekend he lost the pay stub to his check.
opps more for later bye now
Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: Great Escape
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May 5th, 2004
12:09 pm
Yaaaaaayyyyyy!Ben visited me for lunch. It was simply fabulous/ extremely cute. He made me the cutest lunch with Pb and J, an apple and juice. He is so sweet. And now I'm sitting here in English and I thought I had to make an interview for a paper, but I don't so yeah for me. I'm excited for the OC tonight. Okay, must add buddies to list.
Current Mood:  ecstatic
Current Music: Maroon 5
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May 4th, 2004
03:36 pm
Hey guess what? I decieded not to work on my English paper so here I am. Well, you all missed out on a whole bunch of the chronicles of my life, but I don't remember everything that happened+it would be pretty void of emotional description. So I'm not going to go into it. But I am really excited because Ben is bringing me lunch today that he is hand making and thus I am really really exciting. Okay must go know.
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April 14th, 2004
10:59 pm - Wow guys, here we go...
So... This is my first entry ever into my livejournal (is it one word or two? I wonder if it matters...) Anyhoo, Krystal just gave me the low down on how to use this shiz so I'm fairly excited to try and keep this updated. But be warned that I'm not a computer person at all and I'm already on the computer so much due to this stupid fucking issues project that every time I go into the office I just want to throw my shoe at the screen. aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh... good to get that off the old chest. maybe every time i go to Krystal's I'll update this, hey that's a plan.
Okay, so break is going super duper so far. I've managed to keep myself busy everyday when all that I really want to do is sit at home and do fucking nothing for at least 16 hours. yeah, nice try. I've been home during sleeping hours (well... for the most part)and maybe 3-4 day time hours. Not that I'm complaining, it's just that I hate it when friends call and I don't really feel like going out but I can't say no, so I just go. and I'm done with that subject.
Random thought-I'm really excited to get Ms. Zager's name (along with everyone else I know who spends half of their lives on these pages) so that I can actually be cool like her and know how others are doing.
And I'm bored with this already
when I feel like typing more then i will be back
peace out to all my homies
Current Mood: pleased
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